worrisome family
Aug. 24th, 2002 09:43 pm![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png){kind=small}
pylduckAll this while I've been afraid that I won't be able to make it. All this time I've been afraid that I might have a nervous breakdown or otherwise lose my ability to function as a self-sustaining adult. But I should have been paying more attention to my brother and my parents.
I've heard from both of my sisters separately now that they think my brother is abusing alcohol and prescription drugs. We all know that he is very depressed and angry, that he hates his job, and that he has no friends or acquaintances with whom he can interact in daily life. But he's never mentioned to me personally that he often drinks a lot or that he takes prescription pain killers to dull the pain of going to his despised job every day. Add this to my growing realization that my parents are really just not happy, not able to enjoy their lives and accomplishments (because of us "failure" children), and I'm shocked to realize now that I am in fact the one who has gotten along just fine. I am the one who has persevered, taken a hold of his life, made the decisions that matter to what I want to be, and managed to find happiness in various aspects of my life. But half my family seems to be losing it . . .
I've heard from both of my sisters separately now that they think my brother is abusing alcohol and prescription drugs. We all know that he is very depressed and angry, that he hates his job, and that he has no friends or acquaintances with whom he can interact in daily life. But he's never mentioned to me personally that he often drinks a lot or that he takes prescription pain killers to dull the pain of going to his despised job every day. Add this to my growing realization that my parents are really just not happy, not able to enjoy their lives and accomplishments (because of us "failure" children), and I'm shocked to realize now that I am in fact the one who has gotten along just fine. I am the one who has persevered, taken a hold of his life, made the decisions that matter to what I want to be, and managed to find happiness in various aspects of my life. But half my family seems to be losing it . . .